NANA

I have deliberated for several days now, do I stay or do I go.  As I’ve said before Buddy Slim is just not the same without my weightloss team.  I know there are others, it’s just different.  Of course there are people who are just waiting to point out your sins and lack of Christianity and evilness, well that is between me and Jesus Christ.  He loved me enough to make the ultimate sacrifice for me…..for me………for poor sinful me.  If Jesus loves me, that is all that matters and I assure you I believe he does.  If someone has problems with me, I am perfectly able and willing to ignore you.  I have as much right to state my opinions on here as anyone else and to not be accused of blogging about someone when I am merely stating my thoughts.  Just had to decide all of that for myself, so for all the people who have sent me messages wanting me to stay, I’m here.  For those that don’t want me here, sorry bout your luck.

I thought this was a place I could come to to post my thoughts or things I find interesting.  Everyone else does it.  But I have found that on Buddy Slim as in other areas of life, the same rules do not apply to everyone.  I blogged something I found interesting and asked how others feel.  As a result of that blog, I have been judged to be evil and to give Christians a bad name.  I am still trying to figure that out.  I am evil and I am giving Christians a bad name, among other things, and this by someone proclaiming to the world that they are one.  Still pondering that.  I still have not figured out my evilness.  My sins are in letting certain people get to me and my responding to them in due form.  Will clear that with the Lord.  For anyone I hurt, I appologize, not that I hurt you, but that you have been hurt.  I still don’t understand the whole situation and no screaming at me won’t help me understand.  Some people can come on here and say anything they want to and it’s wonderful, they’re the cherry on top of the Sunday, others are the dirt you brush off your feet, no matter what they try to say.  I have found out in the last few days which pot I fit in and I’m sorry to say accusations have come from people I thought I was friends with, glad I found out before they really have power to hurt me. 

 Just wanted to post my thoughts one last time.  My team is gone, I loved the Diamonds so much, my reason for being here, but they’re gone.  I loved my buddies and friends, most of them are gone, I have no reason to be here.  This will be my last and final blog.  I will not respond to anyone who feels the need to tell me how wrong I am or show me the error of my ways, all I can say to you is check out your own.

I wish all of you well in your journeys and may God Bless you in your lives and forgive you for your wrongs and lead you in the RIGHT direction, his direction by his interpretation, not someones spin on it.  Take care and best wishes.

Do you think they really exist or do people just want an excuse for bizzare behavior?  I know, the experts say it’s true, but is it always and how do we know who someone really thinks they are.  I mean it could even happen here on Buddy Slim and no one would be any the wiser.  Someone could open multiple accounts with different names and identities for their other personalities and we would never know.  Kind of cool you know, but I guess they could also do it knowingly to manipulate people too but surely nobody on here would do something like that.  Did anyone read the book Sybil?  I think it was 32 personalities she had, I loved that book.  It was just bizzare enough to keep my interest.  Just rambling random thoughts.

yep I need some.  Not only in my weight loss journey, but just to get out of bed in the mornings.  I am so tired.  not sure what is going on.  I have an appointment with the doctor at the sleep center in about three weeks, so maybe I can get some answers of why I am tireder when I get up than when I go to bed.  Why I almost fall asleep daily at my desk.  It’s an awful feeling and I would love it to go away.  I have no desire to do anything.  don’t want to be on a team, don’t want to blog, just don’t want to do anything.  Feel helpless and alone.  Could be the holidays creeping up on me.  They are really rough to deal with.  the girls help some with that, they get so excited.  Just rambling…………………………

if anyone wants to keep a forum page open for diamonds members just to contact and support each other, please let me know.  if this is allowed without having an actual team.  please send me a message if you are interested.

How true this is.  so many forget it or think they are the only ones who matter.  We all need to remember we don’t matter to everyone and try not to care about the malicious people who try to ruin our lives. 

 Chin up and only care about the ones who matter.  Pray for the others, but don’t let their attitude toward you be important to the point of distracting you from your true purpose here on Earth, serving God.

God loves us all and sees all, so even if you think you are sneaking and doing things to others that no one will ever find out about, God sees you and you’re gonna pay a very stiff price someday according to his word.  As he said, not a direct quote…….”as you have done to the smallest of these, even so have you done to me”….. so think before we act, if we are trying to demean or degrade someone, we are doing it also to Jesus, his words, not mine.  All the Bible thumpers who think they are greater instead of lesser in the kingdom and can treat anyone anyway they please and hide it and get everyone to believe in them needs to think about what Jesus said.  Quoting scripture doesn’t make you a follower, living the word does. 

 Just some random thoughts.

If you are a Diamond or you are on the Diamonds roster and did not receive a private message from me yesterday, please send me, Tanis, or Isabelle a message.  I don’t think I had everyone on my buddylist.  Thanks.

Why do people, especially people who proclaim to be good, moral, people of faith look for the bad in people?  It sees as though sometimes they try to take someone apart and question everything they stand for.  They find fault with their actions as well as their words.  Why do people do this?  Whey can’t we all love and get along?  I am having problems with this lately and just needed to vent.  Let’s everybody get along as God intended his children to do and stop picking apart everything each other says and does.  Lets work through these life changes together.

I dedicate this poem to my wonderful friend Linda/Poet.

Pray, dont’ find fault with the man that limps

or stumbles along the road.

Unless you have worn the shoes he wears

or struggled beneath his load.

There may be tacks in his shoes that hurt

Though hidden away from view.

or the burden he bears placed on your back

might cause you to stumble to.

don’t sneer at the man who’s down today

Unless you have felt the blow

That caused his fall or felt the shame

that only the fallen know.

You may be strong but still the blow

that was his if dealt to you

in the selfsame way, at the selfsame time

might cause you to stagger too.

Don’t be too harsh with the man that sins

or pelt him with word or stone

unless you are sure - yea, doubly sure -

that you have no sins of your own.

For you know, perhaps,

if the tempter’s voice should whisper as soft to you

as it did to him when he went astray

it might cause you to falter too.

Let’s all try to be a little bit more sympathetic to others.

Let’s try to live life with a clear conscience.

Let’s not judge others.

Let’s treat everyone like we want to be treated.

Let’s act as Jesus would want us to act.

let’s not just talk about it.

Let’s really do it!

Starting right now!!

I guess we all have different answers to that question.  I would be interested to hear some of them, especially from nameless people who I don’t think know the meaning.  For me, a friend is someone who is there for me, cares about me and would be there in a heartbeat if I called her.  There to hold my hand, cry or laugh with me, whatever I needed at the time.  I think we all know people like that.  A friend is also someone who doesn’t condemn others when they screw up royally.  now that is a friend, someone who can “forgive”  like God forgives.  Someone who truly understands that Jesus Christ died for our sins and we should be as forgiving as Jesus was when he forgave those who persecuted him.  WOW!!!  Now that is a statement, but if we’re followers, claim to be “Christ”ians, then we are to forgive, are we not and to love each other and not judge and condemn over anything but turn the other cheek.  Hmmm….yep that would be “Christ”like  but so many only want to talk the talk.  When it comes to walking, they walk the other way and that to me is the epitome of NOT being a friend.  Just my thoughtful rambles.