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Well it’s finally Friday, hope everyone has a great one.  I wish everyone success with their goals over the weekend, hang in there, we can all do this.  My pound that came home is still here, I’m ready for it to move out, not just go on vacation.  Pounds are like kids, they move out for a short time, but they seem to come back way.  I’m ready for mine to move out for good.

Yesterday was a long day and as a result of being off my normal schedule, i have too much lunch.  The scale is up a pound this morning, but that happens, hopefully tomorrow it will be back down.  I seem to have pound every now and then that can’t decide if it wants to leave or stay, but i know it will eventually leave so I’m ok with it.  Perseverance is the name of the game.  So onward we all go.  Happy Wednesday everyone.

I knew it had been a long time since I was on buddy slim but didn’t realize it’s been over two years.  Lots of ups and downs in that time.  Got into a weight gain period and in May of 2011 i hit 248 pounds, my highest ever.  My A1c was 9.7 I think it was, everything was through the roof, I was to the point of going on insulin.  I really don’t wanna go on insulin so I finally got serious and the weight started leaving a pound at a time.  I was so proud this morning when I got on the scale and I had lost 50 pounds.  It’s an awesome feeling to be under 200.  I know many of you can understand.  It’s taken me eight months to get here and I’ve got a long road ahead of me, but with perseverance I’ll get there.

I read that somewhere once upon a time, seems fitting today.  It’s been two months and three days since I lost my Bubba, my second dad, I feel so alone.  Yes i am married, I have a grown daughter who lives 400  miles from me and the most wonderful grandchildren in the world.  But the person who loved me no matter what is gone, he left me here.  Some days are ok, today is not, we are heading to the mountains this afternoon, a trip planned a long time ago.  the problem with this is the last time I was there, Bubba met me there for the weekend.  Another first.  And this morning for some reason, it just hit me that it’s my first Thanksgiving when he is not on Earth.  Last Thanksgiving my daughter and her family, me and hubby all piled in on him.  Had a great time.  And of course the last day of April this year, I lost my 15 year old pomeranian, my second child, who has always been there for me.  Husband has no clue.  I can get so down i’m draggin my own tracks out and he has no clue.

Sorry for the negativity, I just had to let it out and can’t talk to anyone about it.  Thanks to my buds for “listening”.

good luck on the eating for the weekend, I’m sure I’ll eat enough for several people.  Take care and have a good one.

I was feeling a little down over people who I thought were friends who are no longer willing to be so.  In the last two days, I have been approached by two new people wanting to be my buddy.  thank you God for showing me there are people in the world willing to be my friends.

sometimes change is good and sometimes it is bad.  I have been away from Buddy slim for a very long time.  Thought I would check in and see how everyone was doing.  Lots of new names/faces and very few old ones.  Last time around, I let someone i thought was my friend lure me into her drama and made a lot of enemies, most of those are gone so I reached out to some I thought were friends.  guess I better think again.  I do have one good friend on here, she is a very special person who still accepts me as her friend.  Maybe it’s time to either move on for good or reach out to new people and try to start over.  Starting over could be a good thing.

There is a little boy named Coleman who lives in Iowa.  he is in New York this morning getting ready to go into surgery.  He has brain cancer, afraid I can’t spell it right, so we’ll leave it at that.  He is such an inspiring and faithful little boy.  He and his twin brother are four years old.  Please remember Mom and Dad also that they have the strength they need through all of this.  While you’re at it include all the little ones who are fighting their fights.  Last month was Pediatric Cancer month but it doesn’t get the publicity some of the others do.  Also remember the parents of all the little angels who have earned their wings.  In the words of a very wise woman named Mimi who lost her little man earlier this year, CANCER SUCKS!!!!

Please send one (or more) up for my brother Joe.  He has multiple health problems, heart problems, diabetes, hepatitus C, etc, the list really goes on.  He is at the point of needing dialysis, he has been in the hospital since Friday with congestive heart failure.  He has to be sedated to put in either a cath or a fistula, his cardiologist will not approve it.  they are sending him home today, his kidney function is 15 percent and his white count is 50. As some of you know I leave for my cruise this weekend which only adds to my distress.  This brother is more than a brother, he is more like a second Dad.

  thank you so much, you guys are the greatest.

You guys are so awesome.  You have welcomed me into your midst and made me feel accepted and at home.  I fell like I was born to be a rockstars, oops, sorry Jeffrey, a GREEN rockstar.  I just wanted everyone to know how great it is to be a Rockstar.  If anybody thinks they might want to be one too, just check us out on the forums and let Lara know, we have room on the green team for a few more members.  Go team.

for the site of course, but more so for the Rockstars who have given me so much support already in the short time I have been there.  I don’t normally care much for green, but I am ever so proud to be a green Rockstar.  If anyone out there is in need of support and people to encourage and motivate them.  give the Rockstars a looksee and if you like what you see, give Lara a holler, we have room for a few more.