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I read that somewhere once upon a time, seems fitting today.  It’s been two months and three days since I lost my Bubba, my second dad, I feel so alone.  Yes i am married, I have a grown daughter who lives 400  miles from me and the most wonderful grandchildren in the world.  But the person who loved me no matter what is gone, he left me here.  Some days are ok, today is not, we are heading to the mountains this afternoon, a trip planned a long time ago.  the problem with this is the last time I was there, Bubba met me there for the weekend.  Another first.  And this morning for some reason, it just hit me that it’s my first Thanksgiving when he is not on Earth.  Last Thanksgiving my daughter and her family, me and hubby all piled in on him.  Had a great time.  And of course the last day of April this year, I lost my 15 year old pomeranian, my second child, who has always been there for me.  Husband has no clue.  I can get so down i’m draggin my own tracks out and he has no clue.

Sorry for the negativity, I just had to let it out and can’t talk to anyone about it.  Thanks to my buds for “listening”.

good luck on the eating for the weekend, I’m sure I’ll eat enough for several people.  Take care and have a good one.

I was feeling a little down over people who I thought were friends who are no longer willing to be so.  In the last two days, I have been approached by two new people wanting to be my buddy.  thank you God for showing me there are people in the world willing to be my friends.

sometimes change is good and sometimes it is bad.  I have been away from Buddy slim for a very long time.  Thought I would check in and see how everyone was doing.  Lots of new names/faces and very few old ones.  Last time around, I let someone i thought was my friend lure me into her drama and made a lot of enemies, most of those are gone so I reached out to some I thought were friends.  guess I better think again.  I do have one good friend on here, she is a very special person who still accepts me as her friend.  Maybe it’s time to either move on for good or reach out to new people and try to start over.  Starting over could be a good thing.

There is a little boy named Coleman who lives in Iowa.  he is in New York this morning getting ready to go into surgery.  He has brain cancer, afraid I can’t spell it right, so we’ll leave it at that.  He is such an inspiring and faithful little boy.  He and his twin brother are four years old.  Please remember Mom and Dad also that they have the strength they need through all of this.  While you’re at it include all the little ones who are fighting their fights.  Last month was Pediatric Cancer month but it doesn’t get the publicity some of the others do.  Also remember the parents of all the little angels who have earned their wings.  In the words of a very wise woman named Mimi who lost her little man earlier this year, CANCER SUCKS!!!!

Please send one (or more) up for my brother Joe.  He has multiple health problems, heart problems, diabetes, hepatitus C, etc, the list really goes on.  He is at the point of needing dialysis, he has been in the hospital since Friday with congestive heart failure.  He has to be sedated to put in either a cath or a fistula, his cardiologist will not approve it.  they are sending him home today, his kidney function is 15 percent and his white count is 50. As some of you know I leave for my cruise this weekend which only adds to my distress.  This brother is more than a brother, he is more like a second Dad.

  thank you so much, you guys are the greatest.

You guys are so awesome.  You have welcomed me into your midst and made me feel accepted and at home.  I fell like I was born to be a rockstars, oops, sorry Jeffrey, a GREEN rockstar.  I just wanted everyone to know how great it is to be a Rockstar.  If anybody thinks they might want to be one too, just check us out on the forums and let Lara know, we have room on the green team for a few more members.  Go team.

for the site of course, but more so for the Rockstars who have given me so much support already in the short time I have been there.  I don’t normally care much for green, but I am ever so proud to be a green Rockstar.  If anyone out there is in need of support and people to encourage and motivate them.  give the Rockstars a looksee and if you like what you see, give Lara a holler, we have room for a few more.

it’s a new week in my new start. :)  I am so excited, having a ball, I’m a ROCKSTAR!!!!!!  woot woot!!  and more especially a GREEN Rockstar (gave you a plug there Jeffrey).  I am very excited to have a team and then a team within a team.  Someone to talk to and support.  Makes me feel more accountable and i think the scale is actually gonna go in the right direction again.  til my cruise at least.  gotta be very careful.  hope everyone has an active, food conscious week making good choices for the new you. 

Thank God we can have new beginings!  Due to all the drama lately, I deleted almost all of my buddies in the last week.  I had fifty some at one time, when I got done I had I think seven.  Didn’t figure after everything that had happened anybody would want to be my buddy or even talk to me.  In the process I hurt a good friends feelings, well let’s say we hurt each others feelings.  We have since made amends for which I am thankful.  So today marks a new beginning for me here on Buddy Slim, hopefully I can get the weight started back down and get some motivation.  I am on a new forum with some new friends so hopefully that will help some.  I still miss my team, but have to move on from that too.  Everybody remember we’re here for support, for ourselves and for each other.  But also remember you can get carried away supporting other people and into places you don’t want to be.  Onward fellow buddyslimmers, we will slay the fat dragon and be healthy svelte people.

Just wondering if there is anybody who is interested in revamping the Diamonds team and bringing it back to life.  Maybe some newbies would like to get a team going.  If anybody is interested, just sent me a message.  Thanks.